Well a lot can change in a week. Last week's blog I wrote about being completely content and loving life here. That part hasnt necessarily changed, but I probably had the saddest weekend in Honduras this last weekend :(
So, I've been dating a guy from here- he's the PE teacher at our school and a wonderful human being, not to mention how amazing he has been as a boyfriend. I really, really liked being in a relationship with him. However, we had a discussion this weekend about our faiths and his isn't quite as solid as I had originally thought. slash.... I kind of avoiding talking about it with him because I was afraid that would be the case. I know, dumb. But! all that to say, I decided to end the relationship this weekend, and as break-ups usually go, it was pretty hard.
The reason for this blog isn't to complain and make people feel sorry for me, but I thought I'd at least let you know how sad I was to explain how surprised I am at how well I am doing a few short days later! This summer was an amazing time of growth for me spiritually, and while I can't help but grow spiritually in a place surrounded by so much of God's beauty, I haven't pursued a relationship with God as much as with Ramon lately. Since Friday night, I have been forced to talk to Jesus about everything and beg Him to make me feel better.... and He has! Let me give you a few examples of the ways He's done it.
~ my wonderful, wonderful roommates- the girls that I live with are full of sweet advice and encouragement. One of the girls said that the thing I'm going to want to is go to the boy for comfort and that won't really help and they've all gone out of their way to be there for me. Saturday we hung out just us girls and I genuinely enjoyed myself. I didn't want to go to my room and cry or be alone. That has been my experience with every other ending of a relationship, so I know God is helping me out!
~ I've been reading through notes from my summer and every sermon talked about God's love and His longing to be the One that fills us. This is definitely a lesson that I need/want to learn and it's so encouraging to have verse after verse, note after note of abiding in Him
~ my mom sent me a book for my birthday called The Satisfied Heart.... sometimes books with titles like this make me not want to read them, especially when I'm single and wanting a husband. blah blah blah, I know that's partly the point of the book but also that it's for single and married people alike! :) anyway, I'm on Day 5 today and everything in it is perfectly in line with what I need to hear. I keep it under my pillow because I know as soon as I wake up I'll think about how sad I am, so I quickly try to counter it with a little God note :)
~ talking with all my friends/family from home.
~ On Monday, I went to school sad because since we work together, I knew it would be a difficult day of minorly avoiding him... one of my students randomly gave me some candy and a card with a Bible verse- Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. How appropriate and kind of Him to give me a reminder right away in the morning!
~ On Tuesdays I have music with First Grade which is seriously the worst grade ever. I dread Tuesdays and Wednesdays because of their class! However, Tuesday the kids were PERFECT. I think God knew I just wouldnt be able to handle naughty kids that day. Now today (Wednesday) they were back to their horrible little selves but ... I could handle them today :)
~ I taught some of the classes the song "Skiddamarink...I love you" for music, and at one point this week, I ran to the bathroom to cry and second grade was on a bathroom break. The girls spontaneously broke into song and hugged me. It was precious
~ Our neighbor Paola really liked us dating- as in every chance she got, she would talk to us about when we were getting married ;) she now goes out of her way at school to come give me hugs and kisses. A little fourth grader- so beautiful!
So, I have my kids, my roommates, my family, the mountains, and the promise of a really good friendship with Ramon. And, if I didn't have all that, I would still have Christ and I'm just now starting to realize that- surprise! - He can be enough! He can make me complete and whole and satisfied.
Anyway, that's been my week. I hesitated putting it in my blog because ... relationship-y stuff can be annoying, but .... it's part of the Honduran experience! and my life experience! So... for those of you taking notes on prayer requests... you can just add that my ex-boyfriend becomes a fantastic man of God :) and send up a lot of praises for how wonderful life still is here! I'm going to be home so soon, I can't hardly believe it!
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